One day before leaving Newtown we argued, shouting at each other in the garden. We then sat on the settee and you told me that 'you were not you,' you 'didnt mean what you said' and that you needed to 'find yourself.' I still believe those words to be true and everyday I hope that the person I love, trust and adore returns. I know you need to do this on your own, but remember I am here for you every step of the way - 'as long as it takes' remember...